in No Time at All
I was born an orphan
Left behind from the beginning
Alone
Quickly kind this couple
Pleased to give me a home
Took me into their arms
Within years from my beginning
This babe became personality
Awoke raging curiosity
Questioning means of search
The parents tried to protect
But up to the edge I went
Reaching over the side in need
A floating water toy I had seen
The older kids playing with in glee
Not me, they said I was a baby
So I waited until they went away
Eagerly stretching out for my turn to play
When
SPLASH
Joyous shouts from afar
Drowned out my terrorized cries
Fear flooded in
Down I went
To the bottom of a dark, cold pool
Alone
From a balcony, someone did see
Long after my fall
Wailing out a need for help
A young man came running to her call
He leapt in death defying decent
To save my life that day
This dark-skinned man could not swim
His sacrifice in action is my greatest lesson
Exalted atop many I experienced
That day my life flickered
But stayed
For reasons I did not understand
Then
But now will explain
As the fear flooded down under
Lost in death or somewhere between
Life went into darkness
I faded
Something new took hold of me
Purest silence calms
No more alarm
I was no longer
Alone
Silhouetted figures framed in light
Soft hazed glow, not too bright
A whole group of them, all differing sizes
But head and shoulders above the rest
The one in the middle seemed
To focus the groups thought energy
Through one idea communicated with all
Individually understanding
Instantaneous telepathic being
Except for perspective
Everything else
Is one
This was the opposite of alone
All in one, but not the same
I was myself and everything else
All at once, simultaneously
An eternal moment broken
By a strange howling shrill
So far away in distance
Yet in an instance I knew
The voice my mother threw
Beyond the realms we exist
And hearing her cry for my demise
Gave purpose to my action
I catapulted back
Sat up and began
To calm my mother’s heart
As a matter of fact
I explained my task
Returning for her, but ready to go
Back deep out into that unknown
Which is our home
Where we are never
Alone
They showed me other ways
Humans exist than the days
Turned around clocking sun
There is only that which
Exists all in one
No place or time
Nor haste or rhyme
All flows
Energy
They gave me peace of mind
Calm joyous unbelievably kind
Presence of self all together
Melting into warm liquid
Love beyond mention
Without greed or hate
Never lost or late
All flows
Energy
The list goes on so long
Subtle insights drawn
An eternal moment spent
Wading infinite
Held attention
Understanding unfolds
Everyday I grow older
But there was direct contact
A questioned asked
Innocently I answered
Rhyme and reason did not matter
In conversation my curiosity
Searched them for knowledge
And when the shrill of my mother
Pierced into eternity
I acknowledged my present dilemma
Realizing my situation
They asked what I was to do
Wanting to stay in perfection
Needing to alleviate strife
For the kindest heart on earth
Broke the drum eternal
Warned the heavens not to harm
The child thought dead before her
I cleverly decided to return
Quick to tell her
No one is able to stop this fable
Of existence that we are
For now the need decreed
To prevent complete release
Sorrow be damned when I sat up
To calm her doubts
However clever I thought
My intentions were not brought
To fruition at that time
Since I did not end up
Back by their sides
I could never have let
My mother’s heart break
That day beside the pool
But I wanted to spend
Eternity then
In one
Where was not
Alone
In the hospital later
I remembering feeling rejected
Tricked to come back for a while
Since, at four years of age
A whole lifetime to stay
Seemed an eternity in its own
Yet everyday I understand
How preciously short life is
And to them
I will be back
in No Time
at ALL
~
DBrown Fisher
© Feb 1999
