Selfishness

“Call me…”

Once again

Up against the wall

Arms and legs spread

Position assumed

Arrested for ludicrous conduct

Charged with trusting you

To be mature

Basic respect

Use your head

And get it straight

Once again

I am the fool

If only you knew the effort

Chain doll fractured

Now crushed into dust

By irrelevant carelessness

Distracted selfishness

Is your heart weak and tired

Or are your intentions mired

Cruelly immersed

In some perverse

Head game to the death

Romantic homicide, sensual drive-by

And I’m left lying dead cold

Hollowed by heartless bullet holes

When they come to retrieve me

In self-absorption you’ll claim

You were actually aiming

For someone else instead

Since you’re ignorant to the target

And a blind shot at best

Your bullet ripped through my heart

Completely missing my head

Which I wish you had blasted

Blown clear away

Because that is how I felt

Similar to that day

My only child was taken

Far away my heart wanders

Rarely to confide

But in your confidence

I now realize

How unjustly I judged you

Gave false credit undeserved

Paroled my innermost

Only to get burned

My heart will never be imprisoned

Where criminals like you belong

Busted for drive-by selfishness

Spread up against the wall

I want no excuse or alibi

And you can forget

That phone call

~

DBrown Fisher

© Sept 1998